It has been a terribly long time since I last posted, and I’ll tell you why. I gave up. When I moved to Vermont I was very excited about working in cheese. Unfortunately, there were not a lot of jobs to be had outside of cheesemaking. I am not a cheesemaker. I don’t have the strength for it, or the talent. So I went back to cooking.
I spend the past several years doing something that I liked, but didn’t love. I took my baking hobby and I started baking and selling my nummies at several farmers markets during the summer I stopped paying attention to the cheese world because it was a bit too painful to think about what I wasn’t doing anymore. I had regrets about leaving my cheesy job in Chicago and moving back to Vermont. I contemplated moving back. Would they take me back at the shop? What if I begged? What if I offered to work for significantly less monies? Would they take me back?
Why did I leave?
As you might be able to discern, I was lost. And depressed.
Just about a year ago a fantastic job opened! It was cheese-centric and felt like the right thing to do. I was so excited! I aced my interview because I’m a goddess in birkenstocks clogs and a few days later I got a call. I had a job offer! I was going to spend the night thinking it over, but I knew that I was going to accept the offer. I hung up the phone and was just about to dial my best friend when the phone rang.
“They’re rescinding the offer. “
“They found someone better.”
“I knew it was too good to be true.”
It was my friend. The one I was just about to call, gushing over how happy I was, and how this job had come in just the right time because I was going crazy at my current job.
She was crying.
She told me that she had cancer.
I don’t remember much of that conversation. I just kept a mantra in my mind
Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’tcrydon’tcrydon’tcrydon’tcrydon’tcrydon’tcrydon’tcrydon’tcry.
Somehow I got through that conversation and I didn’t cry. I hung up the phone and sat on my bed for a bit trying to think about what this meant. I’m not going to get into detail, because this isn’t a blog about cancer. Or my friend. Or my friend having cancer. After thinking it over I knew that I couldn’t accept the job. I knew that I had to make myself available to my friend. That if she needed me to move back to Chicago to help her out, that that’s what I was going to do.
I called the employer back and told her what happened, but honestly, I don’t know if she believed me or not. I told her about the phone call, and that I wouldn’t feel right taking a job if I thought there was a good chance of me moving out of state within a few weeks or months.
My friend is in remission now, growing hair and eyebrows and is doing much better.
I stayed at my chef job. But I kept looking for cheesy work.
One day I was searching through craigslist and did a specific search for “cheese” in the job category and something popped up!
Once again, I rocked the interview (same goddess, different clogs) and was offered a job. This time I was able to accept! I’m back in cheese! I cemented it with my first visit to the Vermont Cheesemaker’s Festival in three years! I am as happy as can be! So, I’ve decided to start writing again. My philosophy is still the same. I won’t lie to you about what I like. I will not knowingly give you false information. I will own up to any errors I do commit. I do not like Armenian String Cheese. Get over it.
My name is Cheesewench and I love cheese, shiny things and the number seven.
P.S.
Cancer is a fucking asshole.
P.P.S.
I will do my best not to turn this blog blue.